Monday, June 13, 2011

I'm out of Babies

My third child just truned 6, and my youngest, just turned 4.  I also have an 8 year old, and a 13 year old, I really, truley, no longer have babies in my life full time now.  I haven't thought about it too much, time just goes by, and life just goes on.  But, sitting here this afternoon, as I listen to the little grown up conversations held by my children, I miss snuggling a baby to my breast.  The smell of a tiny baby, the wonderment in everything they do and see as they approach toddlerhood.  It tugs at the heart.

I am actually getting somewhat excited about this part in my life.  My husband and I have never been on a honeymoon.  We have been married almost 10 years!  Hell, we have never been away from our children for more than 2 days alone together.  I don't even know if we would know what to talk about if we had 72 hours alone.  We could get past the first 2 days.  Day 1: go to bed early, sleep til 10am, go for breakfast, go home, lay on couch and watch movies all day.  Day 2: sleep in til 10am, go get groceries together, go to a movie, quiet dinner in child free restaurant & enjoy calm conversation about how nice being alone is, go home, maybe, finally, have enough energy to "cuddle" before sleep.  Day 3: get up . . . . what do we do. 

Besides being at the stage of my life where I now have to oppurtunity to spend more quality time with my hubby, I also am able to focus more on my career.  I can get more work done during the day at home.  My day is not all consumed by diapers, diswashing, dirt removal and dog crap clean up.  I have no more diapers!  My oldest does dishes!  The kids know how to vaccuum!  And my son is a dog poo pro!

I think life maybe actually getting too easy.  Maybe that's why this afternoon I had time to sit and enjoy listening to my children.  Maybe.  I think, it's actually just a new chapter in my parental journey, and I am not sure if I am ready to start it just yet.  So I'll sit a little longer.

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